how i live now

from everything's coming up thrillho by blue lotus

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amputated ambition
where did it all go?
washed down the drain
you were pulling hair from

a recognizable face
in the mirror
a ghost reaching
for my tonsils

when i close my eyes all i see is fire
its a likely reminder that i'm burning more than bridges
holding onto the ridges of a mountain -
this nightmare does not differ from the times my eyes are open
this dream i'll never achieve -
all this pain for what? nothing.

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from everything's coming up thrillho, released January 22, 2015

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